hey Blog......

How are you? you'd thought I was gone for the day. Almost..

I've been thinking today and feeling oh so calm. Thinking about Melissa and how lucky I am. She is wonderful and I will always show her that' I will always show her respect. You know what's weird Blog is that I've known Melissa for a little over half a year. I know she has been down at times and has gone through some rough times and stuff. Some with people and some with herself. What's weird is that she say's she's been the happiest she's ever been. The most conifidant she's ever been. She has an overall good self esteem. I never knew that girl Blog. I only know the one I fell in love with. WOW what a girl that is!!!!!!!! so I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm sure I've had something to do with her attitude and how she feels. Well I hope she knows that I've learned so much and have never cared for someone so much. And you know what Blog? It's not infatuation or lust. I know you know that. It's just I'm so happy holding her hand and walking down the street. It's when I'm walking towards her and she gives me a little wave and of course it's waking next to her. Those things make my heart sing so loud. I guess Blog I've learned just as much or more from her. It's great that we're still us but are coming in to our prime as people in a way. she can do anything Blog. I love her.

and I'm horny. she just called me and informed me she was. that does not help....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

talk to you after the weekend! cheers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, Friday! Yes it is Friday and I'm pretty happy about that. It's kinda quiet right now and it's nice to sip on a yummy orange spice tea and type. What will the weekend bring? Will the snow be good? These are all questions I cannot answer, and to tell you the truth i like it that way. Last night I had my app. and it went well. I got done and went over to M's house. We talked for a while about a lot of things. My appointment somethings in her life and this and that. It was nice to be able to go home and have someone so special and wonderful who I love dearly and then throw in a great conversationalist. We can talk! I know that doesn't sound like much to some of you, but to go the next level in any relationship you have to be able to be open to each other and ready and wanting to learn about them and what makes them up. What makes them tick. You have to realize that there are long term goals. And we still have an amazing sex life. No joke. She blows my mind. We do that with each other and it is so great! So many people in relationships and marraiges can't do that. Man I feel so overwhelmed with happiness when I slow my brain and realize this. You're my best friend., but you already knew that. oh..and I'm glad and so stoked for my appointments on Thursday nights. I thought a lot last night, but it didn't keep me up. Just learning a lot. It's hard but good. I look forward to moving in with M a lot, but I'm glad we still have seperate headquarters for the time being. We still spend most evenings together, but when we do move out as the flowers come out, the birds start a chirping, and days grow longer it will be right. To come home from skateboarding, or surfing on a weekend to our place and crawl under the covers together and drift off to sleep as our toes touch. WOW is all I can say. To put our pictures in are albums(that are on the bookshelf) as our adventures continue. To lay there and feel your heart beating. Thats what I look towards. It's not to far off I say to myself, so be happy with the now because the future is so bright! And that makes me smile from ear to ear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK so thats my love Melissa that I've been explaining. I figure I'll be talking a lot to you so you should be brought up to speed. She is the best though..
Well work is still slow today. Just talked to my Rep Sternie. He just got back from Vegas. He's a true friend. Don't even care much about the other two. They're truly insane.
Pizza for lunch = yum!
Did I tell you that I'm going top Mexico. It's true. Secret between you and I Blog is I've always wanted to go. I've been trying to get a group to go forever, but there was always a lame excuse. Then iI meet my honey and YAHTZEE!!!!! Now I get to go with the my love. good shit. 98 days and we're heading south. I love the sun and the warmth, but will continue to enjoy this rain and warm winter. sounds sad doesn't it.
Awweee going snowboarding this weekend. Sounds good to me. We'll talk soon.

OK I forgot my Flaming Lips CD again...man I would like to hear that right now.

well I've had my blog for 2 hours and I've already screwed it up. Better have Mel help me out a bit. Feel weird today. can't get this panic feeling to leave me alone. I feel like everytuhing could just crumble right before my eyes and I would be left standing. I feel like all is right then I get hit with lame shit. want to go talk to counsler lady and see whats up. but I don't think she can really help me right now.

why do you have to be so defiant sometime?

well I've created a Blog. I'm horrible at spelling and worse with grammer. this was really easy and I look forward to filling this up with all my rants and raves that can consume me at times. I'm quite a happy boy most of the time, but a couple things make me angry and one thing makes me wah. Fake people, people that lie, and work right now make me angry. Foggy goggles make me wah!. this is fun I could ramble all day. anyway a lot of things make me happy. I met a wonderful person a while back and nothing has ever made me so happy. she truly is the best person I have ever had the pleasure spending time with. all times are great with her. the loud ones, the busy ones, the stressful ones, they're all good especially the quiet lovey ones. I can promise this will be full of her and I's adventures that we do. all of our little projects we take on. Just full of times I share with her. They're so wonderful. she is so FUCKING RAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'm serious there is not a word in the dictionary that can describe how wonderful she is.
we did some snowboarding in the rain last night and IT WAS SUPER FUN!. then we soaked up all of the water like a little kid losing it in his diaper.......but yeah, this is pretty neat. I look forward to this. awwwwwwwweeeee..technology.