time and time again i feel your kisses on my lips and they get sweeter each time. your touch and smile can bring me to my knees.

all i have ever wanted was for you to be my wife, my soulmate. to always awaken and see you sleeping calmly next to me. when i awake at night and get up for something i always kiss you on your back and say i love you. i don't think you were aware of this but it tickles my insides to be sleeping next to such a beauty.

in 45 days we will be man and wife. forever joined. melissa dion i will always be here for you. please remember that because at the end of the day THAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING ANYONE CAN HAVE...LOVE!

our love is so precious, so wonderful.

iloveyou

wow!!!!!!!!!!!!it has been too long since i have been in here. in less then 2 months on November 13th a dream that started back in August of 2002 will come true. i still remember that long ass ride to the store up at crystal and watching you in your mirror and falling in love. you had your hair in pig tails and i was just drooling over you. you had me at that point melissa. i remember getting back to the house and everyone had left and getting back in the car all the way to Seattle with you. wanting to tell you all the things i had in my head.

i am so lucky melissa. i thank my lucky stars to have found my soul mate. i get all choked up about how we have such honesty in our relationship. how i can tell you things as you do me. how we can sit back and laugh at the lies in all the relationships around us. i guess thats kinda sad but it makews us that stronger. melissa dion and am so proud that you are going to be a Beal. it makes my heart swell the size of the ocean.

i want you in my arms right now so i can hold you tight. i love you with all my heart.
the mini-honeymoon is going to be over the top. then in March or April it's off on a surfing honeymoon. i am so fortunate.

tomorrow is the big 1 year for Melis and I. this year has blown by in record time. it has been filled with so many adventures and memories thatwill last a lifetime for me and keep me smiling long after I'm old and gone. she has brought such beauty and joy to myself. she truly completes me.

what are some highlights you ask?

i just tried writing some out and i wrote everything in September of last year and it was 17 lines. i can't write them out. there really are too many wondeful memories. damn that girl is the best!

we're off to Mexico in October and am stoked. we have a lot of good stuff coming up in between then as well.

melissa you brighten my day and my world in so many ways. you have showed me what it is like to love someone so deeply.

iloveyou

hello Blog...

SO PISSED OFF. I'll get to the good stuff later but first..FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

man I rode my bike in to work today and got to the kitchen to drive to the office and start my day. Well Corey are meat mover had taken the keys to the kitchen truck home with him last night. So i called his house and his mom was all, "do you know what time it is?". I'm all, "yeah, 8am is Corey there". Then Corey proceeds to tell me that he's sleeping and that there is nothing that he can do. Un fucking believable. So i called up Melis and vented and then i called JKW and vented. so pissed. I would never have acted that way when I was 19. ok enough of that.

boy am I sunburned! we went to Chelan over the weekend and got some sun. It was rad, Melis jumped off of her biggest cliff ever. i did a naked backflip off of it for some boats and a wager from Melis. Pay up lovey!

Things with her have been pretty amazing and just get better. i was a liitle nervous about Chelan and kinda jumped on her a little> I'm sorry sweetie. she knows that. we are thinking about getting married around Halloween of 2004!!!! last night we had yummy dinner with her mom and when we got home the power was partially out. then i was all being Mr. Know it All saying all was fine then it all went out!. Honey was right. But it was fun to snap photos of lovey in the candlelight folding the clothes all cute and playing with Begonia! Things with her are on a level that just keeps getting raised and raised to a better level each morning. I have never had a relationship like this before and it feels amazing. Just like this morning when we were laying there and talking and snuggling. Those times are truly the best. when she came in for a kiss goodbye and those sweet red lips. so natural, so gorgeous. This is the first time she has been able to be herself, love herself, like who she is and were she is going and If you had known her 1 year ago and you look at her today and see how she radiates beauty, charm, self confidence it is mind blowing. I'm so happy she has truly come in to herself and I have been a part of it. I think i've been a huge part. and the great thing is she has done the same for me in so many ways. she has taught me and shown me love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want to get a camera and take pictures and develop them in Bobs darkroom. I want a nice black and white shot of Melissa. She is a drop dead beauty. Gorgeous beyond words.

iloveyou Melissa Christine. this summer has been amazing and still getting better. is it ever going to let up. not with us. we have the best of times.

we went and rebooked Mexico for October 18th. yah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would like honey to finish her fish painting. it's great. i want to frame it!!!!!!!!!!!

ok bye.

Melissa you are truly amazing.
iloveyou

"I didn't die I aint complaining, I aint blaming you"

"no more coke, no more meth, my head is coming a mess.........the good times are killen' me"

great lines. i can't wait to hear the album. i learned a lot.

sometimes you just don't know.................... and that is what makes dumbasses and fakes. What causes people to not be real and honest. it's so nice to have a person I love and hold so dearly.

iloveyou

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hello blog. It's been sometime since we have spoken. Things have been quite well thank you very much. We did the big ass vacation which was a total sucess. My lovey learned how to drop in (great job sweetie). Melis had a kick ass B-day which she so much deserved. My honey needed that. Then this last weekend we went surfing and skating down to Oregon. It was rad, I love trips like that. Doing as much as you can in one weekend. Fuck surfing is so rad. I had no idea it could be so fun.

What else...Well things with my honey are faaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnttttttttttttttttttaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaassssssssssssstttttttiiiiiiiiiiiiiicccccccccccccccccccccc......but arn't they always. Yes they are. It's really wonderful to have met my soul mate. I'm dead serious when i say everyday is better. It really is. I could not ask to have fallen for a more beautiful human being. YOU ARE A STAR LOVE!

This weekend we have Matty's bachelor party. It should be fun. Looking forward to the train ride. I have not been on a train in a long, long time. Need to take train trip with honey.

Her and I have the most amazing adventures. We even have an amazing time doing nothing. I admire her so. Maybe I should turn this blog into my Loveys blog.....what else...

work is fine. not to difficult. free money checks still come ebvery week so thats nice.

Lifes just really awesome. Doing this blood type diet i really like..

LIFE IS THE BEST. I AM SO FORTUNATE!

why is it when the sunshines it really does put quite a nice spin on everything. today was beautiful. perfect temp and all.

wow did we all have a really good weekend. We went up to Whistler and just had the best of time. We ate yummy food and played scrabble. we skated a whole bunch as well. skating has been so fun. this guy i'm aquantinces with cracked his skull open skating this last weekend. thats enough motivation for me to were a helmet for now on.

I am so lucky to have Melissa. She really is truly something. It's been 10 months and they have just flown by. You know we all have things to work on and I really feel I have gotten over somethings. somethings just take time and I think thats ok and now i look back and say, "yeah she is all that and so much more." it totally blows my mind. i can look across the room, skatepark, car, apartmeent, ect. and see that smile and it competely melts me. I smile so big, as I am right now, when i think of her. she is golden. a true angel. i am so thankful for having her in my life.

I'm very thankful for my friends as well. i'll never have a better guy friend then Mark. hands down he is a true friend.

well we go to Calgary in one week!!!!!!!!!!!!! how rad is that. so excited i could pee. i have so much to be thankful for.

Life is incredible.